In this very moment, I am laying in bed trying to rest, feeling a little listless. I need to write to sort out my feelings and regain a feeling of serenity. I am at that point in the pregnancy when people ask me one of two questions: "Oh, you're still here?!" or "That baby is coming very soon, isn't he?" I laugh every time! Is it because I'm so huge or because I'm positively glowing with happiness? Only tomorrow will mark 37 weeks when the baby can officially come without being premature, although he can also wait until his official French due date on November 20th! Still a full month away!
I'm so anxious to experience childbirth one more time, one last time. I'm so excited to finally meet my little boy. The emotions are as intense as they are beautiful and are equal only to the intensity of my fatigue! And yet I know that now it will all be but a small moment before he makes his entry into the world. In all my impatience, I feel patient, knowing that those magical moments will soon be ours. Maybe part of me is clinging to this beautiful pregnancy, longing to linger a little longer on this incredible journey that has been mine one last time - an intimate and precious gift from a loving and wise Heavenly Father.
My perfect husband put the perfect finishing touch on the baby nook this weekend. (And I'll finally reveal it to you this coming week!) Lacking an extra bedroom, we have really had to do a lot of moving around and readjusting and getting rid of stuff to make room for this baby. Financially, things have not been easy and still won't be for a while, but in inviting this little one into our home, we followed our hearts and took one of those tremendous leaps of faith that leave you falling in the dark for a while. That's where we're at in this very moment....
It's kind of scary and stressful at times, but in the deepest corner of my heart resides a firm conviction that our Father in Heaven will catch us from that scary jump into the darkness and that everything will be okay. Even better than okay. Beautiful blessings lie ahead.... I feel faith and I press forward with that faith. And it's that faith that fills me with patience for the potentially long month that lies ahead....
What are some of the scary leaps of faith that you've taken in your life? How did you find strength during those moments?
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You've got to be kidding me! My wife's preganacy is due on November 20th too! We already have two, Maja (6) and Tony (3). This time we decided not to know if it's a boy or a girl...
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, how exciting, please let me know when your baby is born!
DeleteOh, having my babies were huge leaps of faith! I am diabetic, so that was a concern for me every time. I am so excited for you, Maria! Your wee one will arrive before you know it! I can't wait to see pictures of the little fellow. What a blessing!
ReplyDeleteFaith is my guiding light right now, Tren. Thank you for your words of encouragement! Bisous xoox
DeleteI'm right there with you about pregnancy, labor and delivery as being a leap of faith. I am also pregnant (only 17 weeks along so I still have a ways to go!) and can't wait to meet my little one. Trusting in God is where I found my strength too! Congratulations :)
ReplyDeleteHi Jen! Loved reading some of your entries about your own pregnancy! I'm glad you're getting over your morning sickness, I was also very very sick the first 4-5 months. Blessings to you, I hope all will go well and that you'll soon have your little one with you!
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